The Distance is Getting to Me

yep, its getting to me. starting be cranky again, going back to the old me, viscious, arrogant, self motivated, self sustaining, achiever, angry, strict, and unforgiving. It's the distance, yup the distance.

3 months ago i still had the medication, or serum or whatever to keep me calm, cool, loving, happy, content, and understanding. Now i feel it fading out. back to the old mean me.

Trying hard to fight it, trying hard to control it, trying hard to change it.

Found out the only way to fight it. Get in touch of what u were doing while u had the medicine for it. But still maybe not tough enough. maybe its bound to happen, go back to where u were and try to fuse it with what u are. get both and arrive with balance. hope it turns out that way. before the medicine's dose can't manage it.

Feel Bad. really Bad...
I abused it. Abused the Medicine... now im dependent.