Independence Day

Independence Day today... sucks that im still dependent in some ways to my parents, and when did we really achieve independence since the world lives on with being dependent to each other. working for one another hand in hand... somehow it doesn't really work like how it is defined. well there a lot of things like that so what the heck, it's independence day then.

Spent a few moments talking to my brother back in LA. It's always refreshing to talk to him, he's like a kid trapped in a man's body. but sometimes thats what we need just pure innocence and pure of heart. well he has been the one helping me out with my problem behind my back and he's doing a fine job. I talked to him about my plans to leave the country and go to NZ and he's cool with it and is very supportive. well, he told me not to worry much on the race thing... with my girl and stuff, he assured me again that its fixed and done with my parents and all, i just have to worry about proving to my parents that there is life for me in NZ. I'm still very lucky you know, having a brother and a best bud who takes care of stuff for you behing your back. He plans to get engaged soon... and its a hush hush thing. Still planning the engagement nothing really solid. one thing he said that made me feel bad for him was being scared that this girl he loves might fool him or something. My brother has a bit of paranoia and phobia with relationships now since her girl left him 4 years ago just because she couldn't take it being apart from him for awhile. So, now he is more cautious about. Which im glad that he is. If there's something in common with us siblings it's how we love, we give it all out no holding back. Maybe its because of how our parents were towards us. They gave it all no holding back, and for me thats a good thing, there's always nothing bad on giving everything you've got for love. its LOVE!

So, inspite of my eldest brother and my eldest sister messin up, im still happy that my older brother in LA is doing ok. I really wish he would commit and get married soon, he needs it bad, being an introvert and anti-social. he needs someone beside him. I hope all the future events that he has planned turns out well.

aside from talking to my bro. I was able to chat with a close friend, miguel. he just recently became a dad, i can see from the look of his face and how he talks the joy he is in. I chatted with him mainly to congratulate him and talk to him about an old friend whom he had a fall out with. Wanted to clear things up with him about Mark, before shit hits the fan and all. All this damned culture problems here in manila complicates things. Gossip sucks but its there... so now i gotta be quicker than gossip. well, i joked around with him about being a godfather, me and my big mouth jokes... well sabi nya sure! hahaha langhya hahaha.... oh well its all good, we are good friends and proved to be.

Realizing how much i have written so far, 2 hours of talking to these two really says a lot about time and life. we can't be lazy coz there's just too much things happening in a day and your a loser not to see it or experience it.

Independece Day quote to self : "STOP PROVING THAT U CAN, IT'S TIME TO PROVE THAT U CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN."