about life, love, work, and happiness

Life, the word that keeps us aiming to live and die. live it to the fullest, live it with love, live it with sense. You try to do that every single day. but when your life is going to change and shift to another turn. The turn too sudden that you don't know how to brace for the fall. So now you question yourself, on all aspects, since you are too confused to see what question you should ask yourself, you see things that you don't normally see. Adding up to the struggles of life. you realize it accidentally, pressure pushed you to think about it. No matter how hard you try to think and solve the pain or struggle, you just can't see it right away, because everything is interlinked, Picking a wrong situation to start working on first might lead you to another chain of problems that you are not ready for. Since you stubble on it accdentally you don't know what to think. you were not prepared for it. My life is going to take a very wild turn. bracing for the fall is not an option, there is no available option for me since everything came up at the same time. You don't have the luxury of saying first come first serve. I have spent days and nights pondering on how i can be able to answer but I just can't. Logic tried hard to find it, but emotion dictates it. This is a very dangerous and scary turn in my life, something that I said that I am really ready for. but now its asking for a confirmation.

Love, it keeps the world going same as hate. without love there wouldn't be hate and without hate there wouldn't be enough love to keep the world surviving. I have loved and shared a lot over these years. these 25 years of my life. I know it will never run out, the will of love is always stronger than faith. Love is based with emotion, you think you are inlove because emotion dictates the mind to be inlove. You give everything up for it. you sell your soul for Love. for that addiction and craving. and you forget everything else. your selfishness goes away bit by bit until you die. making each man more holy in the eyes of God. sure your selfishness slowly fades away but will it ever go away? somehow it will always find its way back to challenge Love. how do you brace yourself in something that is within you?

Work. Money. no matter how you juggle it around its just money. It wouldn't be work without money. Work to live... to buy food.. to buy house... to raise kids... Money money money. and when your an artist stuck in a corporate world raised with money, what can you do. but be slave for it. the art dies and the money lives on. Greed... created money. not system... the whole eco system was setup before the money system ever was. Men and their so called intellect.

Happiness, it gets clouded by fear and you can't see straight. and happiness is like the end of the road that is quite far, but not realizing its just beside you. lingering. waiting for you to let go of fear and get back on your feet. but we are human. we are susceptible to fear.

these are just nonesense thoughts on my so called genuis brain.. self proclaimed that is.. but idiot by nature.